I've had nothing yet, so I can't take more.

I was devistated yesterday. In building this fund for a castle, I had, perhaps permaturely, picked one out. I found out that this particular castle I had my eye on has received an offer on it. The market in the area is terribly slow. I asked how could this happen, why did they pick this one. Of course I realized they picked it most likely for the same reasons I fell in love with it. After some upset, I refocused myself. Everything happens for a reason. I have always wanted to live in a castle, not live in this particular one. There are others for sale. I had two others on my list, both are for sale. They get listed, they sell, there are others. This one, for what ever reason wasn't meant to be, it wasn't the right one.

We're All Mad Here

Absent I have been of late, distracted by the things of daily life. But I have brought myself back into focus. My birthday is this month. I am hoping that my friends, instead of gifts and cards, will support the castle fund. One dollar towards a castle is cheaper than a Hallmark, and no matter how many tears the lovley poems would bring to my eyes, supporting me in this means so much more in the long run.

I have been handing out the Dream Castle Cards to people who have donated. I am hoping to have some of them back soon to display the lovely art of the dream castles of others. Of course I realized that I had one teensy tiny spelling mistake that somehow was overlooked in my proofing. On the bright side, they will be pasted in the memory book, with the back side down and in time the spelling error will be a vague memory.

The sun has been out for three days in a row. That always seems to bring hope during these cold months. I can't wait for spring. A time for new beginnings, for things to blossom.

Well my friends, I shall endeavour to chronicle my journey more often, stay focused, and work my way dollar by dollar to my castle.

Let me see: four times five is twelve, and four times six is thirteen, and four times seven is -- oh dear!

One number. That is all it takes. One number. Someone said to me the other night "everybody's got to have a dream, but yours is bigger than most." It is still just one number. Of course that number is 4,999,620 . This same someone said I will never reach it. It is because 4,999,620 people think the same thing that I haven't. . . . yet. Everyone's got to have a dream.

The lottery is 43 million. I bought tickets today. No, not out of my castle fund. Fingers crossed.

Do you ever feel tired of hearing people telling you that "you can't." You can't have this, you can't have that, you can't have both, you can't, you can't, you can't. I am tired of it. I have heard it all my life. What if it never occured to you that "you can't." Imagine what you could have accomplished so far in life. Imagine what you could accomplish from this point forward.

My father said "good for you, and if you never reach 5 million to buy your castle, at least you will have money for therapy." He laughed. I laughed. But he still supported me. He didn't argue. He didn't say he wouldn't support me on principle. He is there for me, cheering me on all the way. Like those of my friends who not only dare to believe, but support me no matter what the dream.